Saturday, 26 September 2009
hey peoples!
i have return from the unknown...well nt really its jst tht i hvnt been blogging in a while.
so urrm i bet ur gnna wanna know bout me holiday...well frst i went to chitra's house :) there we watched Ratatouille and then kiky came along :D. aftr th movie we played wii thn i had to leave =________="
but
a few days later i went to Lembang nd Bandung. wif me cousins :)
and ofc their parents nd my parents =_="
there we did fun stuff lyk hiking (fun? idk u decide), skype-ing ns msn-ing at midnight, stealing FREE wi-fi :D nd also playing cards, nd such
we also ate (a LOT) and urrm we swam, we shopped :D nd urmm we played games ;p
oooh ooh
the hotel provided free board games nd traditional games at their park, so me cousin tried this coconut-shells-connected-with-strings thingy and ur supposd to step on top of the coconut nd use the string to control it..but when she tried stepping on it, the coconut shell BROKE!
nd we urm tried to hide it bt a gardener sumhw found out. yeah we thot we were in trouble, bt instead th gardener REPLACED it! miracle?
yea nd the rest of th time was okay i guess...
urrm idk wat to say anymore........so cya?
21:15
Sunday, 13 September 2009
hey guys c:
srry im jst kinda sad nw,,smthgs wrong wif me nd i hv no idea.
so i wrote a poem, and here's how it goes:
THE BRIGHT LIGHTS HAS HEARTBREAKING NIGHTS
when the year started
i promised to myself
"dont be retarded,
dont start falling for him again"
as everything else started to fall apart
i found out you had a heart
since that day i started believing
i couldnt believe what i was feeling
as they say,
to make a rainbow u need rain and a sunny day
during those times u had filled up my mind
and since then i thot we were 'two-of-a-kind'
but to every rise there is always a downturn
it felt like my guts started to churn
whn i saw tht smeone else was aftr u
all th facts suddenly became true
nw i hv learnt my lesson
nd im nvr gnna gt it right
and evrythg happens fr a reason
but importantly, the bright lights has heartbreaking nights.
:"(
like? well ths i made jst nw nd is also posted in my facebook notes.
im srry im so sad i really dnt knw whts wrong.
myb im gnna write tmrw,,since its th holidays already
later.
05:45
Friday, 11 September 2009
hey ppls :D
srry i jst got hme. its about 10:45PM nd im friggin tired!
tday was mufti day at school, YAY! i wore a plaid shirt (which Dafi also wore shitt) nd aftr school ended, @ 12ish, we (some) went to Citos and ate Burger King :D
PLUS my mom paid fr my friends *thx mommy :D*
whn we arrivd at bimo's place, we went to take a tour of th house, nd we did some random stff ;P we thn wtchd a movie, The Haunting of Connecticut, which was awesome, tho sme ppl cme late nd thy missd half of it. aftr tht ppl strtd playing x box, PS3, etc etc. while they were playing Taboo or othr gmes, Amanda, Kiky and I strtd taking ppls shoes to hide thm in random places around bimos house ;D *only a joke okayy ahhahahah*
whn dinnr time came, a.k.a. th time whn most of me friends break their fast, Rifan realisd one of his shoes is missing hahhaha. Adit thn also realised. thn aftr dinnr we strtd to hide mre ppls shoes, nd whn EVRYONE finishd dinnr, they wnt on a frantic search looking fr their shoes BAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA :D
aftr MOST ppl found their shoes, we lit fireworks, nd we threw some flares at ppls houses which was ttly awesome. whn thre were only a few mre ppls, me, manda, kiky, bimo, dafi, mark and zach went swimming ;D thn i gt stuck in traffic FOR 2 FRIGGIN HOURS nd thts hw i ended up here :D
thx guys fr ur participation :D :D
08:54
Wednesday, 9 September 2009
soo, i guess my miserable mood is back on.
tday i found out some of my closest friends tht r in th same class as me r gnna move to th nxt class in th upcoming quarter. :( also tday,,well lts jst say sme unfortunate evnts happnd lyk me gtting scolded by my mom bout a low physics grade *lucky my dad isnt home* nd i hvnt done my geography hmewrk *shoott* nd th list goes on and on.
ur probably asking "rnt u supposd to b happy tht th holidays r cming up in only 2 days, and mufti day AND th outing or th house party is only 2 days away?!" well, ironically im nt tht glad. i hvnt ttly finishd th party guest list which is due tmrrw, i am car-less, as in idk which car im gnna go in wif to bimo's, AND i hafta donate some food bt jeez i helpd organize ths! bt still i feel bad nd my mom wont allow me to bring food and such. fuckk
i feel really bad.
btw thx a whole lot to bimo for lending his house for our outing, thx to *shitt i chckd my twitter nd vania sed she cnt come :(* ppl who will donate food nd thx to attendees tht informd me tday, NOW, whether theyre goin or nt.
peace out.
03:40
Tuesday, 8 September 2009
hey dudes/dudettes :D
like th new layout? workd on it fr only a weekend!
omieffinggoshh i gt soo bad fr my physics test nd im super scared to shw my parents. i only gt a fucking 66!! yes its that bad, ONLY 3 MARKS ABOVE THE CLASS AVERAGE!! THATS REALLY REALLY BAD!! bt still, i dnt really care. :) AND THE HOLIDAYS R COMING UP IN ONLY 3 MORE FRIGGIN DAYS :D :D :D and theres mufti day on th last day :D
life is nw a bit bearable,,nw tht i dnt feel left out *drama queen-ish srry :P* nd i feel tht i aint split up in pieces anymre, its lyk both worlds jst combind :D bt thrs ths teeny weeny itsy beetsy problm i hvnt takn care of.
btw i thnk Jared Leto is hott :P
look at his pic: http://justjared.buzznet.com/2009/09/07/jared-leto-sleeveless-sexy/
03:47
Friday, 4 September 2009
hey peeps
srry i ddnt update me blog recently,,too much homework to figure out, too much tests to pass, nd too much problms in life to solve (too hard to solve jst lyk a Rubik's cube).
so, hw did my monday to friday go? so far nt awesome. my math average was 99 fucking percent. nd my parents is STILL NOT proud of me. wtf?! it was so close to perfect, bt wht do ppl say? yes, no one is perfect. my a mth sounds evn further frm almost perfect, 91. SO FUCKING CLOSE TO 100!! shitt. im failing physics nd i dnt gt a single thg, i m very positive tht im gnna fail. idk y i jst cant hang on!! i keep slipping into failure nd i cnt learn anythg since life in frnt of my eyes r lyk moving way too fast.
life, not so well. i dnt thnk nw i cn fake those smiles, pretend thgs r ay-okay whn theyre nt. my BFFL is (i thnk) mad at me fr hanging out wif my othr friends, im being left out nd theres ths big problm between my friends nd theyre nt telling me which makes it all worse. i knw im nt suppose to write ths out in public bt as i said, i dnt thnk i cn hide anymore. shud i hide evn mre or shud i jst shut up? either way its th same ayt? so one last question, cn a 13 year old enter a retreat/rehab centr? cause i really need some alone, really alone, time. ryt nw idk who to trust, idk wth's happening since no one is telling me and idk wht to do bout it. one side is telling me to shut the hell up bt the othr side is telling me to go figure.
life is so depressing and stressful. thts y lots of ppl die young, nd nw theyre my inspiration.
08:17
Saturday, 26 September 2009
hey peoples!
i have return from the unknown...well nt really its jst tht i hvnt been blogging in a while.
so urrm i bet ur gnna wanna know bout me holiday...well frst i went to chitra's house :) there we watched Ratatouille and then kiky came along :D. aftr th movie we played wii thn i had to leave =________="
but
a few days later i went to Lembang nd Bandung. wif me cousins :)
and ofc their parents nd my parents =_="
there we did fun stuff lyk hiking (fun? idk u decide), skype-ing ns msn-ing at midnight, stealing FREE wi-fi :D nd also playing cards, nd such
we also ate (a LOT) and urrm we swam, we shopped :D nd urmm we played games ;p
oooh ooh
the hotel provided free board games nd traditional games at their park, so me cousin tried this coconut-shells-connected-with-strings thingy and ur supposd to step on top of the coconut nd use the string to control it..but when she tried stepping on it, the coconut shell BROKE!
nd we urm tried to hide it bt a gardener sumhw found out. yeah we thot we were in trouble, bt instead th gardener REPLACED it! miracle?
yea nd the rest of th time was okay i guess...
urrm idk wat to say anymore........so cya?
21:15
Sunday, 13 September 2009
hey guys c:
srry im jst kinda sad nw,,smthgs wrong wif me nd i hv no idea.
so i wrote a poem, and here's how it goes:
THE BRIGHT LIGHTS HAS HEARTBREAKING NIGHTS
when the year started
i promised to myself
"dont be retarded,
dont start falling for him again"
as everything else started to fall apart
i found out you had a heart
since that day i started believing
i couldnt believe what i was feeling
as they say,
to make a rainbow u need rain and a sunny day
during those times u had filled up my mind
and since then i thot we were 'two-of-a-kind'
but to every rise there is always a downturn
it felt like my guts started to churn
whn i saw tht smeone else was aftr u
all th facts suddenly became true
nw i hv learnt my lesson
nd im nvr gnna gt it right
and evrythg happens fr a reason
but importantly, the bright lights has heartbreaking nights.
:"(
like? well ths i made jst nw nd is also posted in my facebook notes.
im srry im so sad i really dnt knw whts wrong.
myb im gnna write tmrw,,since its th holidays already
later.
05:45
Friday, 11 September 2009
hey ppls :D
srry i jst got hme. its about 10:45PM nd im friggin tired!
tday was mufti day at school, YAY! i wore a plaid shirt (which Dafi also wore shitt) nd aftr school ended, @ 12ish, we (some) went to Citos and ate Burger King :D
PLUS my mom paid fr my friends *thx mommy :D*
whn we arrivd at bimo's place, we went to take a tour of th house, nd we did some random stff ;P we thn wtchd a movie, The Haunting of Connecticut, which was awesome, tho sme ppl cme late nd thy missd half of it. aftr tht ppl strtd playing x box, PS3, etc etc. while they were playing Taboo or othr gmes, Amanda, Kiky and I strtd taking ppls shoes to hide thm in random places around bimos house ;D *only a joke okayy ahhahahah*
whn dinnr time came, a.k.a. th time whn most of me friends break their fast, Rifan realisd one of his shoes is missing hahhaha. Adit thn also realised. thn aftr dinnr we strtd to hide mre ppls shoes, nd whn EVRYONE finishd dinnr, they wnt on a frantic search looking fr their shoes BAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA :D
aftr MOST ppl found their shoes, we lit fireworks, nd we threw some flares at ppls houses which was ttly awesome. whn thre were only a few mre ppls, me, manda, kiky, bimo, dafi, mark and zach went swimming ;D thn i gt stuck in traffic FOR 2 FRIGGIN HOURS nd thts hw i ended up here :D
thx guys fr ur participation :D :D
08:54
Wednesday, 9 September 2009
soo, i guess my miserable mood is back on.
tday i found out some of my closest friends tht r in th same class as me r gnna move to th nxt class in th upcoming quarter. :( also tday,,well lts jst say sme unfortunate evnts happnd lyk me gtting scolded by my mom bout a low physics grade *lucky my dad isnt home* nd i hvnt done my geography hmewrk *shoott* nd th list goes on and on.
ur probably asking "rnt u supposd to b happy tht th holidays r cming up in only 2 days, and mufti day AND th outing or th house party is only 2 days away?!" well, ironically im nt tht glad. i hvnt ttly finishd th party guest list which is due tmrrw, i am car-less, as in idk which car im gnna go in wif to bimo's, AND i hafta donate some food bt jeez i helpd organize ths! bt still i feel bad nd my mom wont allow me to bring food and such. fuckk
i feel really bad.
btw thx a whole lot to bimo for lending his house for our outing, thx to *shitt i chckd my twitter nd vania sed she cnt come :(* ppl who will donate food nd thx to attendees tht informd me tday, NOW, whether theyre goin or nt.
peace out.
03:40
Tuesday, 8 September 2009
hey dudes/dudettes :D
like th new layout? workd on it fr only a weekend!
omieffinggoshh i gt soo bad fr my physics test nd im super scared to shw my parents. i only gt a fucking 66!! yes its that bad, ONLY 3 MARKS ABOVE THE CLASS AVERAGE!! THATS REALLY REALLY BAD!! bt still, i dnt really care. :) AND THE HOLIDAYS R COMING UP IN ONLY 3 MORE FRIGGIN DAYS :D :D :D and theres mufti day on th last day :D
life is nw a bit bearable,,nw tht i dnt feel left out *drama queen-ish srry :P* nd i feel tht i aint split up in pieces anymre, its lyk both worlds jst combind :D bt thrs ths teeny weeny itsy beetsy problm i hvnt takn care of.
btw i thnk Jared Leto is hott :P
look at his pic: http://justjared.buzznet.com/2009/09/07/jared-leto-sleeveless-sexy/
03:47
Friday, 4 September 2009
hey peeps
srry i ddnt update me blog recently,,too much homework to figure out, too much tests to pass, nd too much problms in life to solve (too hard to solve jst lyk a Rubik's cube).
so, hw did my monday to friday go? so far nt awesome. my math average was 99 fucking percent. nd my parents is STILL NOT proud of me. wtf?! it was so close to perfect, bt wht do ppl say? yes, no one is perfect. my a mth sounds evn further frm almost perfect, 91. SO FUCKING CLOSE TO 100!! shitt. im failing physics nd i dnt gt a single thg, i m very positive tht im gnna fail. idk y i jst cant hang on!! i keep slipping into failure nd i cnt learn anythg since life in frnt of my eyes r lyk moving way too fast.
life, not so well. i dnt thnk nw i cn fake those smiles, pretend thgs r ay-okay whn theyre nt. my BFFL is (i thnk) mad at me fr hanging out wif my othr friends, im being left out nd theres ths big problm between my friends nd theyre nt telling me which makes it all worse. i knw im nt suppose to write ths out in public bt as i said, i dnt thnk i cn hide anymore. shud i hide evn mre or shud i jst shut up? either way its th same ayt? so one last question, cn a 13 year old enter a retreat/rehab centr? cause i really need some alone, really alone, time. ryt nw idk who to trust, idk wth's happening since no one is telling me and idk wht to do bout it. one side is telling me to shut the hell up bt the othr side is telling me to go figure.
life is so depressing and stressful. thts y lots of ppl die young, nd nw theyre my inspiration.
08:17
