hey peeps
srry i ddnt update me blog recently,,too much homework to figure out, too much tests to pass, nd too much problms in life to solve (too hard to solve jst lyk a Rubik's cube).
so, hw did my monday to friday go? so far nt awesome. my math average was 99 fucking percent. nd my parents is STILL NOT proud of me. wtf?! it was so close to perfect, bt wht do ppl say? yes, no one is perfect. my a mth sounds evn further frm almost perfect, 91. SO FUCKING CLOSE TO 100!! shitt. im failing physics nd i dnt gt a single thg, i m very positive tht im gnna fail. idk y i jst cant hang on!! i keep slipping into failure nd i cnt learn anythg since life in frnt of my eyes r lyk moving way too fast.
life, not so well. i dnt thnk nw i cn fake those smiles, pretend thgs r ay-okay whn theyre nt. my BFFL is (i thnk) mad at me fr hanging out wif my othr friends, im being left out nd theres ths big problm between my friends nd theyre nt telling me which makes it all worse. i knw im nt suppose to write ths out in public bt as i said, i dnt thnk i cn hide anymore. shud i hide evn mre or shud i jst shut up? either way its th same ayt? so one last question, cn a 13 year old enter a retreat/rehab centr? cause i really need some alone, really alone, time. ryt nw idk who to trust, idk wth's happening since no one is telling me and idk wht to do bout it. one side is telling me to shut the hell up bt the othr side is telling me to go figure.
life is so depressing and stressful. thts y lots of ppl die young, nd nw theyre my inspiration.
