Monday, 28 December 2009
oioi
so last night i really really REALLY couldn't sleep. i was insomniac for the night. i felt like i went crazy just because of thinking! last night i watched Wild Hogs and When A Stranger Calls at the same time and i really really didnt focus on the movie. it was like battling late night nausea and a major migraine AND insomnia.
i dont know what had gotten into me but i kept thinking like hell, i dont exactly know what i was thinking about but point is i was THINKING.
well, thats that and lets leave it since i dont feel like thinking and staring into outer space.
today i got 2 new hamsters, i named them mumu and momo :) i really dont know why i named them that but live with it. both of them are girls (and im guessing that if they stay in that temporary tiny cage until next week they will be lesbians HUAHAHA) and i swear i hate their cute teeny weeny guts now since they're making so much noise since they keep biting my cage! but i cant just let them go they're really freakin expensive (not telling the price).
and now im here sitting alone in my room spending an hour just thinking on what to write next in this post and im just writing anything here so that it looks long and i just wanna finish this post so i can close the tab and i have like 8 other tabs squished in the browser since i open links to almost anything and yeah im probably making you so fucking bored so yeah.
night.
so last night i really really REALLY couldn't sleep. i was insomniac for the night. i felt like i went crazy just because of thinking! last night i watched Wild Hogs and When A Stranger Calls at the same time and i really really didnt focus on the movie. it was like battling late night nausea and a major migraine AND insomnia.
i dont know what had gotten into me but i kept thinking like hell, i dont exactly know what i was thinking about but point is i was THINKING.
well, thats that and lets leave it since i dont feel like thinking and staring into outer space.
today i got 2 new hamsters, i named them mumu and momo :) i really dont know why i named them that but live with it. both of them are girls (and im guessing that if they stay in that temporary tiny cage until next week they will be lesbians HUAHAHA) and i swear i hate their cute teeny weeny guts now since they're making so much noise since they keep biting my cage! but i cant just let them go they're really freakin expensive (not telling the price).
and now im here sitting alone in my room spending an hour just thinking on what to write next in this post and im just writing anything here so that it looks long and i just wanna finish this post so i can close the tab and i have like 8 other tabs squished in the browser since i open links to almost anything and yeah im probably making you so fucking bored so yeah.
night.
06:18
Sunday, 27 December 2009
last week was..utterly terrible
1. all we got to do for Christmas was have lunch and movie (and my aunt paid)
2. my Christmas present came late. actually i dont even have one with me until today.
3. my parents are pissed at me since im emo. wtf right?
4. the internet was down for 57 hours. i couldnt do anything. and my dad wont fix it until this morning.
5. i cant concentrate on homework. literally.
6. i am literally isolated in my room 24/7. everyday i wake up and go online then watch TV then sleep then the whole process repeats EVERY SINGLE FREAKIN DAY. is that boring or WHAT?!
i am so stressed right now. i think i can officially declare that i am having a breakdown and no one can deny it. i dont even know what else to put in my english essay and all i've written is 1 page. i dont even know what to write for my book report omigodd school in only 9 STUPID DAYS! SHIT!
ohgod ohgod shit shit how the hell do i start focusing?! 'HE' wont get out of my head, i dont have a Christmas present and why is my holidays filled with a zillion problems?! i really dont know who can help me now.
1. all we got to do for Christmas was have lunch and movie (and my aunt paid)
2. my Christmas present came late. actually i dont even have one with me until today.
3. my parents are pissed at me since im emo. wtf right?
4. the internet was down for 57 hours. i couldnt do anything. and my dad wont fix it until this morning.
5. i cant concentrate on homework. literally.
6. i am literally isolated in my room 24/7. everyday i wake up and go online then watch TV then sleep then the whole process repeats EVERY SINGLE FREAKIN DAY. is that boring or WHAT?!
i am so stressed right now. i think i can officially declare that i am having a breakdown and no one can deny it. i dont even know what else to put in my english essay and all i've written is 1 page. i dont even know what to write for my book report omigodd school in only 9 STUPID DAYS! SHIT!
ohgod ohgod shit shit how the hell do i start focusing?! 'HE' wont get out of my head, i dont have a Christmas present and why is my holidays filled with a zillion problems?! i really dont know who can help me now.
18:18
Wednesday, 23 December 2009
yeah
my hamster died today
(i am kinda sad, i dont have anyone or anything to annoy :/)
i know, shit. it cant spend christmas with us. (well what was i supposed to do?! the animal shop CLOSED okay?! and i ran out of food!!) besides its kinda old, its been like what? 3 years? (well my previous hamster lasted 5 but round up 3 and its 5 okayy)
nothing interesting today, which made it the best day of my holidays at home since i got to do absolutely NOTHING by playing NFS Carbon ; Own The City while waiting for my dad to finish whatever at his office.
But today was such a let down since i bought this GINORMOUS pack of hamster food (the shitty shop still closed but i managed to get some in Ace Hardware) and also saw dust (yeah big pack also, but its only 10 thou) and i noticed my hamster died as i was opening my door :/ :/
Last picture of Hammy (i really dont know what to name him okay?!) RIP ?-2009
my hamster died today
(i am kinda sad, i dont have anyone or anything to annoy :/)
i know, shit. it cant spend christmas with us. (well what was i supposed to do?! the animal shop CLOSED okay?! and i ran out of food!!) besides its kinda old, its been like what? 3 years? (well my previous hamster lasted 5 but round up 3 and its 5 okayy)
nothing interesting today, which made it the best day of my holidays at home since i got to do absolutely NOTHING by playing NFS Carbon ; Own The City while waiting for my dad to finish whatever at his office.
But today was such a let down since i bought this GINORMOUS pack of hamster food (the shitty shop still closed but i managed to get some in Ace Hardware) and also saw dust (yeah big pack also, but its only 10 thou) and i noticed my hamster died as i was opening my door :/ :/
Last picture of Hammy (i really dont know what to name him okay?!) RIP ?-2009
03:39
Tuesday, 22 December 2009
yo
ok that sounded wrong.
nvm im probably making you confused
yeah its been 2 months and 1 week since i havent updated. been going through a LOT. well no progress on him, and things are just spiraling down even faster than ever.
camp didnt change ANYTHING, about ...(something)... and i got sick during camp (thats just something to make this entry longer and oh god im gonna make this explanation longer so that this entry is longer hahahha) camp was fun, real fun, and what made it even MORE EXCITING is that most of the girls got sunburn and now im tanned as hell and we spent like HALF OF THE CAMP IN THE BUS SITTING DOWN WASTING OUR IPOD BATTERIES AND SEEING PEOPLE DOGPILING AND WASTING MONEY ON BUYING SNACKS THEN THROWING THE WRAPPERS ALL OVER THE PLACE. oh and not to mention PEOPLES BAGS FALLING DOWN ON US and we're TRYING TO SLEEP BUT CANT SINCE THE ROAD IS REALLY ROCKY AND BAD AND THE BUS DRIVER DRIVES SO FREAKIN FAST AND ROUGH. but yeah lake toba is nice, the sunset and sunrise is AWESOME! not to mention the grand swiss belhotel is freakin awesome since the pillows are all nice and fluffy AND they give you 2 :P i swam like everyday which is just lawl.
then i arrived home at like 2 am and slept all the way til lunch :P but the next day i had to get up at 4 to catch a flight to HONG KONG :) HK isnt cold at all. from the first day to the last i used the subway which is totally awesome and cool and i like it when theres no seats so i get to stand lawl. i only used the taxi like twice. i went to macau also, only to see the ruins of this church and i was there only for like 5 or 6 hours. and i think i lost weight by walking too much, so much that my veins nearly went BLACK, which is awesomely awesome. and no i didnt went shopping too much, since the stuff were,,yeah. normal.
but after everything ends its just, not nice. im just so depressed right now and im not even sure why. i keep feeling that i lost something or i am missing something which makes me feel so pissed off and screwed up. i stay up until 1 am everyday just thinking and thinking and (oh shit i wrote this much? whoa) i never find the answer. i dream of weird things like it suddenly snowed in Padang or me winning a trip to Antarctica and all i brought were my Vans, 2 pairs of jeans and a few t-shirts which is totally insane
and now my left leg is completely numb and im making my mom pissed off becuase im not showering and i already made my dad pissed since i didnt say "happy mother's day" to my mom pssh so what. btw need advice should i change my layout?
ok that sounded wrong.
nvm im probably making you confused
yeah its been 2 months and 1 week since i havent updated. been going through a LOT. well no progress on him, and things are just spiraling down even faster than ever.
camp didnt change ANYTHING, about ...(something)... and i got sick during camp (thats just something to make this entry longer and oh god im gonna make this explanation longer so that this entry is longer hahahha) camp was fun, real fun, and what made it even MORE EXCITING is that most of the girls got sunburn and now im tanned as hell and we spent like HALF OF THE CAMP IN THE BUS SITTING DOWN WASTING OUR IPOD BATTERIES AND SEEING PEOPLE DOGPILING AND WASTING MONEY ON BUYING SNACKS THEN THROWING THE WRAPPERS ALL OVER THE PLACE. oh and not to mention PEOPLES BAGS FALLING DOWN ON US and we're TRYING TO SLEEP BUT CANT SINCE THE ROAD IS REALLY ROCKY AND BAD AND THE BUS DRIVER DRIVES SO FREAKIN FAST AND ROUGH. but yeah lake toba is nice, the sunset and sunrise is AWESOME! not to mention the grand swiss belhotel is freakin awesome since the pillows are all nice and fluffy AND they give you 2 :P i swam like everyday which is just lawl.
then i arrived home at like 2 am and slept all the way til lunch :P but the next day i had to get up at 4 to catch a flight to HONG KONG :) HK isnt cold at all. from the first day to the last i used the subway which is totally awesome and cool and i like it when theres no seats so i get to stand lawl. i only used the taxi like twice. i went to macau also, only to see the ruins of this church and i was there only for like 5 or 6 hours. and i think i lost weight by walking too much, so much that my veins nearly went BLACK, which is awesomely awesome. and no i didnt went shopping too much, since the stuff were,,yeah. normal.
but after everything ends its just, not nice. im just so depressed right now and im not even sure why. i keep feeling that i lost something or i am missing something which makes me feel so pissed off and screwed up. i stay up until 1 am everyday just thinking and thinking and (oh shit i wrote this much? whoa) i never find the answer. i dream of weird things like it suddenly snowed in Padang or me winning a trip to Antarctica and all i brought were my Vans, 2 pairs of jeans and a few t-shirts which is totally insane
and now my left leg is completely numb and im making my mom pissed off becuase im not showering and i already made my dad pissed since i didnt say "happy mother's day" to my mom pssh so what. btw need advice should i change my layout?
02:45